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2 weeks passed, 11 to go nd again... exams! Didnt even pick up da ones from last semester! Bwah, will pick em up with da upcoming ones. Its only 11 mo' weeks. Sure dey aint gen throw 'em away! Weather forecast predicted 15°C today... Yh right! Its freezin cold. So means I gonna stay inside nd update ma bloggie.

Lets go!

Fresh in da playlist

TQ has a new song/album. Both called Paradise. Finally! I always loved dis guy. -Well most of his songs... His previous album dissapointed me though-. Sumhow he got more serious lyrics den most otha R&B artists. Maybe cus of his background -Compton native- nd he somehow reminds me of a singin Tupac Shakur. Looking forward to hear the rest of his album soon. Westside is still ma fav but dis one is sure one of his better releases.



Never watch da Eurovision Song Contest -cus it sucks- but dis song was in da Belgian pre-elections nd I just luv luv luv it! His name is Nelson nd da song is so beautiful. Reminds me a bit of John Legend or R. Kelly -when he sung dose slow love songs à la "If I Could Turn Back the Hands of Time"-.



Afta hearing "Luv Up In da Club" I was so dissapointed in Usher -see previous posts- but I heard da full versions of "Moving Mountains" nd "My Mistakes/I Can't Win" nd dats da Usher I know! Powerful ballads! Welcome back mr. Raymond!




Erykah Badu is releasing her new album New Amerykah Part.1 (4th World War) on Feb 26th! She is like da queen of Nu-Soul. Dey can say bout Alicia Keys what dey want but she aint betta den Badu nd she will neva be betta. Sure Alicia is good but Badu is totally out of reach. She is only not as mainstream as Alicia.

Old passions

Slowly getting back to ma first passion; poetry nd writing. Been away from it for a while. Nuffin to write about basicly. Didnt get any inspiration from ma ordinary life anymo. Been livin da superficial life, full of meaningless thangs. Well thangs will change! Taking back control of ma life nd getting back to da thangs I find important. Concentrating on da injustice in dis world: bout men abusing women, bout fights, poverty, struggle, ... nd not just livin la bella vita.

Obsessive love

Crossing dat small line between truly loving someone nd a compulsive obsession. Its a very small line indeed nd it can be easily crossed... What causes it? Is it da lack of trust or scared to end up alone? Well today it has happened to me. It feels like someone is inside your head. Sumeone is taking control over you, manipulate you. It starts all very innocent. You might even ignore da signs or find 'em sweet. But afta a while it all changes nd you realize you are caught up in sumthang serious. Sumthang that is getting way out of hand nd dere is no way out w/o hurting sumeone. But you just have to get out cus dis situation is no good at all. It all started with a simple I love you. It shocked me at first cus it was so early. When I didnt reply his love, he got a lil bit agitated. Dose were da first signs I ignored. When time passed, he more nd more started to talk bout us being togetha foreva. Nd dis while we werent even dating. Always rushing things nd never understood dat I needed time. Even playing mental games on me like saying he got a girl now so I am no longer his lady. Calling you a whore cause he claimed you were only up to sex. Even making you feel you owe him sumthang cus you were his first time. Demanding expensive gifts to prove your love nd devotion to him. At dis moment you start to realize dat you are crossing da small line. You feel unhappy but in the mean while you dont want to break someones heart. But somehow you start to doubt if it is still love dat he is feeling. It all gets out of hand when he asked what I planned for his birthday. When I replied dat I wont be in the country dat day he loses his mind. Immediately assuming dat I would be with a male friend dat day. Sumhow I wasnt surprised to get dat assumption from him. But sumwhat bitter I replied dat I was going to see an old friend who was around for sum days. Dat sumhow made it even more worse. He felt betrayed dat I would leave him alone. Leave him alone while I would go see someone I am close to but havent seen in years due to da distance. Dis sumhow gave me courage to stand up nd set sum thangs straight. No longer will I be terrorized by dis guy. He has always been da one preaching bout respecting people nd listen to dem. While he is da one who is demanding dat I should drop all my friends for him. Dis was one step too far for me... Looking back at all of dis I should have seen da signs earlier. Not because I loved him cause I didnt but because it is awkward when someone plays mental games on you. Its like you are Pinocchio nd he is Geppetto. He pulls da strings nd you lift up your arm... You just dont want to be with him nd he knows it. He knows it nd used it to get back to you. If you ever find yourself in a situation like dis, den dont let it come dis far. Dont minimalise da signs but act. Dont hesitate cause you might break someones heart. Think about yourself nd da consequences dis person may have on your happiness or even future. Dont let anyone decide what you want in your life or say what you feel. Only you can dat. Nd when he is demanding you to give up everything, realize it is no love but an obsession. Stand up for yourself nd get out. Take back control of your own life!

Sex Sex Sex

Definition of sex

A painful activity in which a man, using the stiffest and pointiest part of his pelvic region, repeatedly stabs a female in her crotch until he feels satisfied.

A good one dont y'all think? Well dis was an introduction to ma subject of da day: boys, sex nd relationships.

I once wrote a poem about a secret confession of a natural obsession. It was neva biographical until yesterday! I was talking to mister X -yes Lolu, him *roll eyes*- nd all of da sudden I just flopped it out -Hey your bruv is kinda hot. Introduce me to him!-. I am serious! It was out before I realised it! He actually took it quite well! Haha! Well sort of...

Oh nd was on da train Friday. Mad cus I missed ma first one nd had to wait on ma second one. So when I was sulking in da cold, all of da sudden a way too hot guy got on da train! I was like yaw drop lOl. He was like extremely tall, strong body, muscled legs... nd den I saw what he was wearing... A soccer sweatsuit! Could slap my own head! Anotha soccer player! Geez! Whats wrong with me! I hate soccer nd all of da sudden all I can see are 'em players! Why no bball playas! At least I luv dat game!

Some new songs in ma playlist: Akon nd his new remake of Wanna Be Startin Sumthang by MJ. Actually I like dis one. Not an Akon fan -he sounds like a smurf- but dis one is gud. Flexx (of TOK) nd Should I. Dis one sound actually pretty R&B'ish nd not dancehall like I am used of him. Next some snippets of Ushers new album. I hate "Luv In Da Club" cus its a T-Pain'ish song. But I luv luv luv da track "I Can't Win" nd da "Moving Mountains" is pretty gud too. Nd I heard da "Up Where We belong" version of BeBe nd CeCe Winans! I so luv it! Da whole Winans fam is gud actually.

Gon bounce now

Am out

Ready to rumble

Classes started again nd ev'ryone is asking da same question: <>. Ev'rytime dey got da same answer: <>. Is it dat strange dat I am not eager to get 'em results? Ev'ryone will scream yes, unless you know me! lOl. I so dont want 'em! Delay of execution I guess!

Humm. Valentines Day. Hate dis day. All dose couples walking hand in hand, kissing, ... Makes me wanna puke! V*Day is so commercial. Why do peeps need a day to say dey luv each otha? When you in a relation, you need to enjoy each day nd not wait for sum special day to cum cus each day can be ur last. Enjoy da moment while it lasts but always keep in mind dat it can all me ova in 1 sec. (nd for mister ***** I expect a rose today! lOl)

Weather is making me depressed. Like two days ago it was almost summer nd yesterday nd today its foggy nd soggy. Plus a cold wind! I was already moving all ma warm clothes upstairs, guess I have to take 'em back downstairs again if it continues like dis! But like always, I refuse to wear a winterjacket on ma B*Day so no matta how cold it will be, March 27th I am wearing a brand new summer jacket! (to da weatherman: I want sun nd around 28°C dat day!).

Sum otha random complaints (hey its da weather who is making me nag). People just cant be happy when sumthang is handed to 'em! I spend a whole day making a MySpace layout for a friend nd all he said was dat he wanted da first one (while I spend over one hours explaining that da first one wasnt possible!). At dat moment I just wanted to throw ma lappie at his head! Ahgr! Next one: traffic lights! Dose thangs always turn red right before my nose! Cant em stay green for just a lil bit longer?! Third: peeps on da train! Again sum drunk looser staring at 'em boobies for 40 minutes! F*cking perv! Ok, done with ma complaints!

Y'all heard Ushers new joint called "Luv In Da Club"? No? Lucky guys! I just so hate it! He discovered da tween between da voice thang too. One T-Pain was enough you know! Talking about T-Pain. Saw a live performance of him. Guy is crap (or should I say even more crappy) w/o the tween between his voice den with it! So how to become a multimillionaire:

1. Get autoplay
2. Sing bad nd autoplay away da bad parts
3. Try to perform on stage

No seriously! W/o da editing, his voice is like any other guy dat was rejected from Idols! Nuffin special bout it. Just like Flo-Ridah. He was on Jay Lenno a while ago nd he succeeded to make me laugh for da whole performance! Not even da throwing away shirt act could make it interesting!

But now gotta bounce. Classes starting again. Oh yeah, gon skip the last 3 hours so dont tell mommie please!

I'm out.

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