January 2007
January was like a stressy moth. Actually one of da most stressin ever! First time finals. It was just all so new for me. Totally different den high school. Guess dat change is a ârt of growing up. Nd damn did I grow it dis last one nd a half year! I still rememba da last exam. When I got home I just fell on my bed nd slept da whole night - clothes on nd ev'rythang - dats how tired I was. I was just so happy it was over.
February 2007
Well after dose finals, da one week break from school did me guuuuuud! Sleeping, doing absolutely nuffin, more sleeping, watching tv, ... La vita e bella! Ha! But gud times dont last very long nd soon do break was over. Had some rough time around Valentines Day. Seeing all dose hearts, couples walkin hand in hand,... I wanted to do all of dat too but ma former bf was not by ma side. Cried maself to sleep some nights in a row cus I always denied how much I really missed him... But luckily I had people supporting me nd helping me though the rough moments.
March 2007
March, ma belle... Not so "belle" though. It was a cold month dis year. Hell did I feel dat! I kinda always refuse to wear ma winter jacket on ma B*Day. So no matta how cold, I so not wear my winter jacket. Result: stubborn me frooze her ass off all day long. Nd I am still waitin on ma birthday present Bahati! I want da necklace! Betta late den neva!
April 2007
All I rememba from April are ma two weeks off from school. But not really in a good way! Dats when I realised <>.
May 2007
Kinda same feeling as in April. Ev'ryone was getting stressy nd damn did I throw some books dat month! Sumtimes I was like studyin nd had dat feelin nd threw away em books as far as possible. My excuses to all ma friends who got to see da not so good side of me.
I think dis exam period was even worse den da one in January. Cus dis time I knew what was coming! Ev'rytime ma snooze went off, I got so nauseas! Ma nerves were killin me. Its a miracle I never threw up on ma way to class. Lol!
Exams are over! Yay! Results came in. Oops... Well da gud news was dat if I passed, I had like 13-14. Bad news: I only passed 4 exams. Lol. Yeah I felt kinda ashamed. Gotta confess dat I felt like really doooooown when I saw em results.
Kinda like da win or loose month. I tried to just get ev'ry letter in ma head. Didnt matta how, I just wanted to get it in. August 20. First day of second term. Hope all ma studying will pay off... But den, like a lighting on a sunny day, ma former bf broke up with me nd my world crashed down. All I did was crying. Concentration was totally gone. During ma exam, all I was fucussing on was not too break down in tears. I couldnt eat anymore, all my power was gone. Everything I learned, I forgot. It was probably still somewhere in my mind, but it was all overwelmed by da great pain...
Exams were over nd it was just waiting on da results. Nerve wrecking! Den - finally - da results. I passed sum but also failed sum. nd da worst was dat da exams I failed, I had a 9! Dats da most fucking idiot point you can get! A 9 is like: we thought about a 10, not sure though so we made it a 9! Grrrr! I hated maself for da rest of ma vacation. But whats da point of getting mad? Its not like I can change anything...
School started again. So am doing sum subjects of da second year nd sum of da first. Feels good to see da old faces again nd also to see da fresh rookies. Lol. Was a funny sight. As a second year student, I knew like all da short runs. While we changed buildings, day took da long walk while I just took da short run though da building itself. Yall should have seen em faces when I was already dere nd dey just arrived. It was like dey saw Caspar - dat cute gost -. lOl.
Guess my whole life is back no normal - finally -. No more crying maself to sleep cus I miss ma ex. I guess am discovering da new me step by step. Enjoying everything life has to offer.
June 2007
I think dis exam period was even worse den da one in January. Cus dis time I knew what was coming! Ev'rytime ma snooze went off, I got so nauseas! Ma nerves were killin me. Its a miracle I never threw up on ma way to class. Lol!
July 2007
Exams are over! Yay! Results came in. Oops... Well da gud news was dat if I passed, I had like 13-14. Bad news: I only passed 4 exams. Lol. Yeah I felt kinda ashamed. Gotta confess dat I felt like really doooooown when I saw em results.
August 2007
Kinda like da win or loose month. I tried to just get ev'ry letter in ma head. Didnt matta how, I just wanted to get it in. August 20. First day of second term. Hope all ma studying will pay off... But den, like a lighting on a sunny day, ma former bf broke up with me nd my world crashed down. All I did was crying. Concentration was totally gone. During ma exam, all I was fucussing on was not too break down in tears. I couldnt eat anymore, all my power was gone. Everything I learned, I forgot. It was probably still somewhere in my mind, but it was all overwelmed by da great pain...
September 2007
Exams were over nd it was just waiting on da results. Nerve wrecking! Den - finally - da results. I passed sum but also failed sum. nd da worst was dat da exams I failed, I had a 9! Dats da most fucking idiot point you can get! A 9 is like: we thought about a 10, not sure though so we made it a 9! Grrrr! I hated maself for da rest of ma vacation. But whats da point of getting mad? Its not like I can change anything...
October 2007
School started again. So am doing sum subjects of da second year nd sum of da first. Feels good to see da old faces again nd also to see da fresh rookies. Lol. Was a funny sight. As a second year student, I knew like all da short runs. While we changed buildings, day took da long walk while I just took da short run though da building itself. Yall should have seen em faces when I was already dere nd dey just arrived. It was like dey saw Caspar - dat cute gost -. lOl.
November 2007
Guess my whole life is back no normal - finally -. No more crying maself to sleep cus I miss ma ex. I guess am discovering da new me step by step. Enjoying everything life has to offer.
December 2007
Man no comment. Peeps dat know me will know whats going on at da moment so we just leave it to dat shall we?
Looking ahead to da new year
Like ev'ry year, I got one promise to maself: do not make any promises! Dat way you cannot disspoint yaself nor you can disspoint people around you. Simple as dat. What I want to achieve in 2008? Maybe pass all ma exams? But mostly have Bahati around me. Eventhough we broke up, I still carry him in ma heart nd just want him around next Xmas. Nd apart from dat, just continue with ma life. Sometimes I will strumble but I will always stand up again. Imma soulja gurl....
Special thanks to
First of all, I wanna thank all ma dear readers. W/o y'all, I wouldnt be writin dis blog. Second I would like to thank my closest friend. Bahati and Frédéric, thanks for being around. I know I haven't been easy on you guys. Lolu and Jess, thanks for cooling me down at those freaky moments. Tinashe, you ma partner in crime nd nothing will tear Bonnie nd Clyde apart. Finbarrs and Justin; what would I do w/o the two of you? My life would be so boring! Hovi ma man. My partner in music. Let us kill em beats nex year. Ya diig? Stephanie, thanks for sa walk in da rain. Dei nd Junior. Good luck you guys. We will hang out soon. I will be coming to Rwanda one day. Y'all got my word. Masso, you sure you would survive me? lOl! Antonio, ay papi. Dont kill em girls with ya body. Cecili, good luck with your Spanish sweetheart. Invite me to the wedding. I think dats almost it. My excuses for da ones I forgot.
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