Tuesday July 29th

Broadcasting live from my new bedroom. Walls have been painted, tv is back where it belongs, ... Now I need to go on paintings hunt because the wall looks kinda dull and boring the way it is now... Pictures can be found on my Facebook page.

So what's next. Aight, mom who needs to go to work again cause she is driving everyone nuts. When dad and I were installing my tv again, I said something like "the wires used to go up and then down so they are shorter. The tv is still in the same place so it has to work like that again." and all of the sudden mom was like "look who's alking. You used to be smart when you were in 1ste grade, but now you barely pass your exams. And you are still the same person". I was like wtf? What does this have to do with it? Plus the comparisation is shitty. Yeah I am still the same person but comparing first grade where I learnt to spell "dog" with university is crazy. That's like asking why she wears glasses? She didn't wore them 10 years ago... Or asking why she puts a color on her hair because 10 years ago she didn't do so... See how insane her remark was?

Ok so I found this guy that knows Tosin from GBA. And that guy knows Joseph. So now I am trying to work my way through it and get a rendez-vous fixed with J. The guy is just adorable! Not extremely handsome but he has just something sweet... Plus he has a body to die for. And he is almost my age (only 1 year older). Keep dreaming gurl LOL!

There was another huge thunderstorm Sunday evening. It was horrible. I was trying to take pictures of the lightning riding through the sky but of course I was always too late! Seeing, reacting, pushing bottom... Lighting gone already and just a picture of a black sky. But must say the thunderstorm was welcome because the temperature dropped and my bedroom temperature went from 32°C to 23°C. But just to be sure I pulled out my lappie, tv, ... so if the high tension did get hit, there would be no damage.

Stupid PayPal. So I have filed a claim against that eBay guy and when I asked the PayPal centre if they could tell the money was indeed blocked or if the guy was lying, they said "we cannot give you information about someone else's money details". Someone else? Fuck he stole my money and I cannot know if it's still there?! That's 300 euro we are talking about! He better make sure they investigate it and claim my money back or I will file a claim against them too!

Music. Been downloading a lot of music today. Talib Kweli, Murs & 9th Wonder, Little Brother, Keith Murray, Dwele, ... At the moment I am listening to P-Square's Roll It. I'm sure Lolu will go crazy now and have flashbacks about her Paul...

Update about Peter. Must say his (ex?) club gave a nice answer. The tittle said enough "Peter's lies/the true Peter story". Turns out that his option was lifted on time and that he knew for weeks already that he didn't make the final Olympic squad selection. A lie has no legs!

Nite nite y'all

I'm back bitches

So I am back in this blogging game. Got some more updates, thoughts and other trash y'all love reading!

First of all a remark. I received lots of messages from guys saying they want to have a date with me but all their messages are written in poor English and they all say they have used an online translator because they don't speak the language at all. So why on earth would you want a date with someone when you don't speak the same language?! How are you planning to communicate?! Men! All the same I guess...

Why is it so impossible to open a newspaper and not have to read an article about Peter?! This has been going on for days now. Every day when I read the newspaper, I see an article about him at the sports section. Same shit every day. "Oh but I love Antwerp, I only have to pay my bills too you know...". Ah fuck man stop complaining. You earn 10 times as much as normal people do. Maybe stop being such a spoiled brad and stay away from Dolce&Gabbana, Armani, Prada, ... if you find 2*.*** euro a month not enough! And you not being able to make the Nigerian selection for the upcoming Olympic games due to all of the problems that you and your manager created recently: he that mischief hatches, mischief catches!!! If you didn't play it this dirty, you would have gotten your tranfer (and everyone whould have granted you one) but the way you played it was below every level so now you have to live with the consequences. Like one of the supporters on the forum said: "break a leg Peter, literally". Too bad his bruv is such a hottie, so is his (ex-)teammate Emmanuel...

About the iPhone, sh*t! I found one on eBay for $430 and paid for it with paypal. The buyer accepted the money (have a paypal confirmation that he accepted the money) and some hours later all of the sudden he sent me a message that paypal doesn't want to release the money. He said I should ask for a refund (he is going to sell the phone to someone else because he needs the money urgently so he cannot wait till PayPal releases my money). But I couldn't ask for a refund through my paypal (wasn't supported) and he swore he would do a refund (first he claimed he couldn't because it caused trouble). When I called the visa company today, they said the money I've send was still not cancelled and was still open! So this means he did not do a refund and he can still get away with all the money!!! He better pay up or I will file a complaint at both PayPal and eBay!

I am a bit worried about Felix since he got himself in some huge troubles. Luckily Nigeria is a corrupt country so you can arrange a lot with loads of $100 bills!

Had a huge thunderstorm early morning. All of the sudden the sky became all orange and before I knew it, the lightning was riding through the sky! Must say it was more than welcome because the temperature dropped more than 10°C and that was my bedroom could cool down a bit because it was horrible yesterday! Way over 35°C which is pretty hot to sleep in (not that I did a lot of sleeping)...

Must say I miss my push-up bra's. Yesterday I wore a dress with one of my best bra's and my boobies looked stunning but today I am wearing a normal bra and my chest looks 'flat'. No more stunning wow-effect. Whoever invented the padded bra, thanks a lot! Might be posting some new pics on Facebook. Me wearing a dress... Must be a one time only event!

We got a new television since yesterday because the old one we had was showing some attidtude. When it comes to men, there are two things that can never (and then I really mean never) be too big and those are cars and televisions. Dad is the one picking things like that and guess what he has chosen: the biggest tv of em all! The thing is big. More like huge!

Enough for today. I am going to steal some strawberries in the kitchen, so if you never see me again, my mom has given me a one way ticket to hell as a thank you for stealing them LOL!

Untitled

Soooo what's new... Jay changed his mind a little bit about the "forever". He realized he can't live in Florida so he moved back to Brooklyn which means I can still go to NY! Guess life ain't that bad after all. Krinye be prepared boy! You will need a lot more gym sessions before you are able to handle me!

I am now looking at an iPhone on eBay. $420 at the moment and still 3h11min left so I will keep you posted. It's the first generation version but you can upgrade to 2.0 firmware so you have the application store too. Only thing you don't have is the 3G support. But I wasn't planning on taking a contract so I don't need it. And a GPS? I have a Garmin so who cares?

Going to buy my paint one of those days... Let me give you all an exclusive sneak preview: One wall will be painted black and the other one will be lucifer white. I have a hot red modern sofa and I found a beautiful black and white with red lips painting of Marilyn Monroe. So everything will match perfectly! Gon be so classy. Totally me, myself and I! Will post before and after pics when the redecoration is done.

I'm hungry! Think I am going to eat some spinach soup first. Yes spinach soup! It's made by spinach (duh!) with lettuce and chives. It tastes really good but you need to use a lot of pepper and salt otherwise it tastes bland.

Life sucks

I'm mad, I'm sad, I'm furious, I'm ... aghr! The guy I was going to stay with during my trip to NY has moved to Florida all of the sudden! No need to warn me on time. I hate you Jay! So now I have like 3 options:

1. Going to Flodrida instead of NY
2. Hoping Chris invites me
3. Postpone my trip to February when I could stay at Patrice's place

Hotel ain't possible cause the plane tickets rose sky high due to the gas price, which means not enough money left for a hotel room.
February would be much easier for me though because in September I have to register myself at University (or somewhere else) for the new academic year, but I miss NY. I wanna go back there and I was so looking forward to it. So this is a huge bummer. Especially cause I wanted to hang out with Krinye! But hey, NY during February has its charms too. Especially when it snows.

Song update

First of all, shout-out to my baby boo boo Krinye for becoming Rugby Champions. Congratulations, I'm so proud of you. In 3 weeks he's gon play for the Nationals in San Francisco! So with this one, good luck handsome! Too bad I can't watch the game on TV, maybe someone prepared to but it on YouTube or something like that?

The smell of fresh baked chocolate bread is filling the whole house... Imagine this: crunchy crusts, filled with half warm chocolate flakes. Yummie! (Everyone jealous now?LOL)

28 days left until my exams start. I have 5 subjects to study so that means 5,6 days/subject. Must be manageable I hope. Most will depend on the exam schedule. If I have those 5 exams in one week, it will be hard. But that also means I could go to NY for one whole month. But still, if I have to choose between 1 month NY and those 5 exams divided over 3 weeks, I would go for the exams. NY will always be there, while exams decide how my future is going to look like. Exam schedule will be released August 1st so fingers crossed.

Been a while since I last posted some songs so I will make it up to y'all. First song I would like to share is Rain by Razah. The guy is a Jamaican born singer currently signed to Def Jam but I am not really hearing the Jamaican accent though. Song is nice and smooth.

Donnellshawn! So this guy is unsigned but I luv luv luv his songs. Found some on his MySpace and they are really worth listening too.

Another guy is Dontae. No record label but surely worth listening to.

Two of Naija's most famous singers (Dare Art-Alade and 2Face Idibia) hooked up for a colab. The result is this Carry Dey Go.

One of Canada's export products (together with guys like Marc-Antoine and Gage) is Corneille. His new album The Birth of Cornelius is in English and it is certainly worth listening if you like the soul/R&B sound.

Last but not least I have the two songs I talked about in my previous posts. The original version of Knockin Da Boots by H-Town and Knockin Boots '08 by Pretty Ricky. It's up to you to decide which one you like best. Myself, I prefer H-Town.

Sunday July 20th

The Dev Team has released a tool to jailbreak the new 3G iPhone. Hopefully they come up with the unlock and activate tool pretty soon because I want my AT&T iPhone. Don't want the Belgian unlocked model cause that one is way too expensive and I am sure they have less applications like the first generation French iPhone contained less things than the AT&T equivalent. Some people say the new 3G will be impossible to hack but in the end, everything can be hacked I guess. It's just a matter of time. But hopefully it won't take too long though. I am already getting impatient! The iPhone is like the toy for adults.
More about my iPhone search. On the Italian eBay I found an iPhone for €300 but they required payment through Western Union. See those are some things I don't trust. First of all the iPhone unlocked costs almost €600 in Italy and this guy would offer it for €300? Second thing I didn't trust was the quantity. He offered 45 phones. That's a lot for someone who isn't a retailer. And then the Western Union money transfer. That's really something for scammers! I'll just wait till they released the unlock/activate tool. If it is released before September (when I am heading to NY myself) I'll buy me one and if not, I am sure someone wants to send me one!

Back in high school I hated all those language courses. Those 8 hours of French were horrible and the 2 hours of German were my worst nightmare! But in the end, it's easy to know some different languages!
I never studied Italian nor Spanish but thanks to the knowledge of languages like French I am able to understand a lot of written Spanish and Italian. And thanks to my Dutch I can understand Afrikaans! Lets see what else... German. Lord help me! That language gives me the creeps! Everyone says German looks a lot like Dutch... Yes it does when a) you speak them both fluently or b) you don't speak neither one! I was always so happy when I passed that subject with 55%! Normally I would start crying when I have 55% but for German, it was a blessing! My English I learned through music. The passion for music. And hip hop is perfect for it! (My definition of hip hop: music that has a meaning behind each word. It's not just saying a word, it is art. Art does not inlcude girls shaking their butts on some lame beats. For real hip hop lyrics you should check out artists like Common Sense, Talib Kweli, Rakim, some of Tupac's work, KRS-One, The Roots, ...). Also trying to learn some African languages like Swahili. Must say it's not that easy! Maybe if I would have some adorable and handsome tutor... (That's a hint Chris).

Damn I am so tired! This weather is seriously getting on my mood. It's been raining for weeks now and I need sun to recharge my batteries. It's so unfair when guys from NY tell me it is 33°C over there while I am over here in this stupid rain! You'll see: when I am there it's gon rain all the time and over here in Belgium the weather will be fantastic! It's always something like that! Yes I know I am nagging but it's the weather.

Went to check out RAFC's soccer match against some team I forgot the name of. Heard they had some cute ass try out guy, black of course, but didn't see him. Either they fooled me or I am getting blind. Manu was the cuteness himself (too bad the guy is married) and Marco has still the killer body. Heard some new things about mr-I-am-the-man Peter. Now he is claiming that the option in his contract was used after the allowed period. Everyone is getting sick of that guy, even the ones that supported him before (that includes me). If it wasn't for his brother John, he would still be in Naija. For real! If John wasn't a famous player down here, Peter would never had the opportunity to move to Europe because he isn't that great. And that's something he doesn't understand! The guy is seeing big bucks and that's all that matters to him.

Heard my girl Lolu isn't going to India anymore. Too bad for her cause she was really looking forward to it. Hope to see her soon though! We have so much things to say and do! You don't meet a girl that often who is as crazy and open as her! She's a dime.

Been watching the Pretty Ricky video for Knockin Boots 08 again. Damn that's just porn. LOL! The song should be named '4Play and Sexy Spec ft Pretty Ricky'. Just watch the video and you will know why. But the king of all video's in still D'Angelo and his Untitled video! While the Pretty Ricky video looks more like soft gay porn (the way Sexy Spec is sliding his hand over his chest looks pretty gay, so are the dance moves), D'Angelo is more neutral and teasing. But say what you want about D, he is hands down the best vocalist (in the contemporary Neo Soul gerne) of the last 15 years. He really brings back that old grooves from guys like Marvin Gaye. Yet he is still unique. Guys like Usher, Chris Brown and other sound alike but I never heard a second D'Angelo. And even he never sounds the same. His Voodoo album had a totally different sound from his Brown Sugar album.

And it's raining again! Oh well just gon eat I guess and get back to my study books.

Peace.

Radom thoughts

First of all, I've been a good girl yesterday. I studied two whole pages. Horrible ain't it? I really need to start studying because the exams start August 18, which is in exactly one month. You know what I noticed last exam period? I wasn't extremely nervous when I was doing the oral exam. I did have some serious stress attacks the days before the exam but when I was doing the exam itself, I felt at ease. Maybe because I told myself I would fail anyway and had accepted the failure already... Gotta say some exams where close to failure (a 10/20) but I still passed all. Who knows how I will feel during my upcoming exams because those are really my last chance. If I don't get that 75%, I have to look out for something else to study. I have one other thing I would like to study and that is sports management. But the problem with this subject is that it is only taught at Bruges, which is pretty far from where I live.

So I am still looking for an iPhone. Been searching on eBay and the prices all go over 1.000 USD. Now I am expanding my search to the old version too but they also go over 600 USD. The new 3G version is also released in Belgium but it costs 615 EUR (922 USD). So I am continuing my search on eBay. If I find one that I like (preferable one that is never used) that is in my price range I will buy it. If I dont find one, then I will ask an American friend to buy me the 500 USD AT&T one without the contract. So my deadline is the release of the Dev Team's unlock tool. As long as they haven't found a way to unlock the new 3G one, I continue my search. If I haven't found one before the release, I will ship one from the States. But my concern about the American ones: will the American WiFi also work over here in Europe? Do we use the same frequency? Because an iPhone without internet is like a half phone! If that's the case, you basically loose one of the main functions of the phone. The phone has some downsides too though. For example the fact that is has no flash or that is isn't possible to receive MMS. When one of your contacts sends you a photo, you receive an SMS with a link to the photo (but luckily you have internet on the phone so you can check it out straight away). It is also not possible to add a picture to your contact details. With my Nokia 7370 I could add a picture of a contact and when that person calls me, the picture is shown on the phone.

Been counting my money and I came to the conclusion that I can either go to NY for two whole weeks if I can stay with a friend, but if I have to go on hotel, I can only stay one week. Chris? Jay? Patrice? Anyone interested in offering me your couch? I don't take up that much space! I'll pay for the water I use, same with the electricity and food. Not that I will be inside very often... I will be hanging around down town like all the time! Shopping, looking at the eye candy on the street, strolling through Central Park, ... Anyone want to join me? So far I am still going alone so all company is welcome. Only remember one thing: hands off my Krinye! His muscles are mines! But luckily for my female companion (if I ever find one), he has a twin brother so maybe if you are nice, you can borrow him... Maybe just maybe. LOL!

Had a really strange dream last night. Can't explain it but it was something really odd. Wouldn't mind if it became reality one day... Why? Because I head a dream job, I earned €250.000/month, owned an apartment looking out over Central Park and I date(d) some of the hottest guys in the world. Too bad it was only a dream...

Yesterday I was reading an article on one of my favorite blogs. It was about sagging jeans. Got into a fight with a guy over this. Freedom of speech. Saying my opinion got me the f-word. Am I against the law? Hell naw because I never liked sagging jeans! Seeing a small part of the underwear (like 5cm) is still fine, but jeans that is under the buttlocks is just hideous. I never liked the thug style of dressing with the maxi sized shirts and jeans. I've always been a fan of Usher's style with the well fitting jeans (and yh he shows some underwear too), but the jeans withs nicely around his upper legs. And I absolutely adored the jackets he always wore with it. Especially the white one with blue striped shirt in his Yeah video.

You know you are getting old when teeny boppers are covering songs from your youth. Some days ago while I was browsing YouTube, I found out Pretty Ricky did a cover of H-Town's classic song Knockin Da Boots. The song is very close to the original but the thing that caught my attention was the video. Dayum! Basically the looked like well toned male strippers. Do I mind? Not at all. Guys always get what they want (seeing barely dressed hip hop candy) but we girls barely get our hip hop candy! I so miss the D'Angelo days when he was spinning around naked in the Untitled (How Does It Feel) video. Those were the days... Talking about D, what's that guy up to lately? I heard last year he would release an album in 2008 (finally!) but so far no news and we are already July... I miss the guy and his music. His Brown Sugar is still one of my all time favorite albums. I played it yesterday in my car for the millionth time. Volume on full power, everyone looking at me while I am singing along...

In April the weather forecast predicted we would have an extremely hot and dry summer. Dear mister weather man, you were wrong. It's July and it is cold and raining all the time. It is way too cold for this time of the year. I was so looking forward to the hot days with a lot of sun, but what I got is depressing weather! The one good thing about this all is that I can show off my Dolce & Gabbana jacket I bough some weeks ago.

When I read my girl Lolu's blog, she was talking about the new Jennifer Hudson's CD cover. That girl looked really thin. I heard she was working out very hard to loose some weight, but I still think the album cover is a little bit photoshopped. When you look at her arms, they look really thin and tight but when you come from a chubby figure and you loose weight, the skin isn't that tight. You have some loose flesh and on her cover it doesn't show at all. And the waist. I do believe she can loose weight in a short time, but that is wow! She looks like a model. Did she wore a corset? Photoshopped? But if that's natural, she can always send me her workout and diet schema! In case those pictures are indeed photoshopped, it seriously disappoints me because she proved you don't have to be skinny to be beautiful and successful. She was like a role model for every girl that didn't have the perfect size.

Gon leave y'all. Dinner time. My tuna with salad is waiting!

Thursday July 17th

I finally got em. More than one week due but now I finally got em. Never thought I would say this but I missed em. I even missed the pain like when they stab knifes in your thighs and all the discomfort that comes along.

Been a bad girl again. I swore I would study at least 3 hours a day starting from Monday. But it's already Thursday and haven't started yet. Bad bad me!

Was trying to make a new wallpaper yesterday and it didn't came out the way I wanted it so now I am trying different things to improve it. If anyone got some advise, feel free to holla.

So hungry! But gotta wait one more hour until dad comes home from work and picks up the food at the store. On my menu is an Italian baguette with tomato, salad, cold potato salad and many more stuff. Gon be so yummie!

Gon leave y'all and start working on improving the wallpaper.

1 week due

I'm bored, my stomach hurts and my period hasn't started yet... heavenly *sigh*. But c'mon what are the chances I am really preggers? Like almost 0% right? Ok, here are the dates. Last time sex was April 28th. Had regular periods on May 8th and June 6th. As far as I know, the protection did not fail. But there are women who are pregnant and keep having their monthly bleedings. So I am freaking out now. I can't be, can I? But if I am, then I am in deep shit cause the abortion term has passed already.

Made up a study schedule. Not really a fixed one but I am going to force myself to start next week Monday and I'm going to study at least 4 hours a day because I want to go for the full 100% of my credits. Not just the required 75% but the whole package.

Been looking at plane tickets to JFK. The cheapest was 564 euro. Isn't that expensive. So looking ahead to going! Hanging out at Central Park, BK Bridge, Hard Rock Cafe, ... and of course the company! Especially the company of the guy I was talking about in my previous post. Wish it was already September. Millions of pictures guaranteed! Will take pictures of every angle! The Bridge, Empire State Building, Ground Zero, ... You name it, I will capture it on film! And of course I will do a lot of shopping. Exchange rate Euro-Dollar is low so I will make a lot of profit. I want to get some Ed Hardy cap. Those are stylish. Also want to get me a MacBook Air! Lol it gon be an expensive trip! Better cancel my trip to London...

I got some new CDs in my player. Two French R&B/Soul albums. First one is Changer Le Monde by Gage. This is his second album and he did not disappoint. It's a really good album! My favourite track must be Mon Frère. Second CD is Entre Toi Et Moi by Mathieu Edward. Don't really have a favourite track on the album but it sound smooth in general.

Going to redecorate my bedroom. One wall is going to be black and white damask wallpaper and the other walls are going to be black. I already have a red modern sofa and I saw an amazing black and white with red lips painting of Marylin Monroe that would fit perfect in my new bedroom. It's gon be hot!

Parents left, time to play some music and get the booty shaking. LOL!

Another meaningless post

Got my exam results in front of me... I passed all my June exams. Too bad I messed em up past January otherwise I could have a wonderful vacation but now I will be stressed all summer long. I need 75% of all my credits or I will be denied further enrollment. So far I have obtained 50% so I need another 25%. Fingers crossed. I should make a deal with my mom: if I get that 25%, I can get a tattoo.

Wanted to let a new iPhone 3G come over from the States (because over there you could cheat: first buy the phone and later you should register it online and buy the AT&T contract before you could activate the phone, instead of doing that you just hacked it) but turns out AT&T changed its policy. Now you first need to buy the 2 year agreement before you get the phone. Not funny! I don't need the contract, I only need the phone and over here it costs €615 and that's too much for a phone!

I know this guy (he knows who he is) and I have never met him but still he's like really sweet. He's the first guy who didn't get mad when I woke him up with a txt msg. I don't know but it's like I can tell him almost everything (or at least a lot). When we first started talking he said he wasn't looking for a soulmate or something but I hope the teddy bear accplication is available? LOL! Nah he's a great guy to talk to and can't wait to meet him in real. Hang out, chit chat, ...

So I am having this stomac aches for some days now and my period is due for 6 days already. Normally I am pretty sharp. One day earlier or later but never 6 days. Is it possible to be pregnant and still having your period regulary for the first 2 months? Last did it end of April, had period like a week later, month later I had them again. They lasted a little bit longer than normal though and now they ain't coming. We used protection and I am (was) pretty sure it didn't fail but now I am getting worried because 6 days is a lot, especially for someone like me.

Did y'all hear about that Ice-T vs Soulja Boy beef? Ice said Soulja was responsible for killing hip hop and Soulja responded with a diss back. Wel first of all, Ice shouldn't be dissing this kid in public and second, Soulja wasn't the only one! The killing started years ago with guys like 50 Cent. On the other hand, Soulja boy, you don't have to like the rappers that came before you, but you have to respect them. And another thing, Fuck The Police is an NWA song so it's written by Ice Cube and not T. But back to the death of hip hop. Back in the days you had guys like Eric B. & Rakim, Africa Bambaataa, Furious 5, DJ Kool Kerc,... with their own unique sound. And yes they had even meaningful lyrics. Girls in thongs are not meaningful! And the beats... How many times do I have to listen to the same recycled Timbaland beat? Nowadays when you hear one song, you heard them all. If the situation stays like this, I will be stuck in the 80s and early 90s forever. Stuck in the days when hip hop was still real hip hop.

End of my preaching.

Shattered dreams

I am so so mad right now! Remember I told you about me getting hooked up with one of the cutest guys alive? Well the cousin changed his mind. So if he can change his mind, so can I: no need to be friendly and talkative to him. He is no longer useful to me! Pfff!!!

Been really busy today (or should I say tonight?). Get your mind out of the gutter guys. It's not what you think it is. I had a lot people asking me to do some design stuff. First webbie asked me to turn a drawn into a PhotoShop brush. Was a lot of work cause I had to redraw it all otherwise he would have had a crackled bush and that wouldn't look nice on his apparel line. Then some Jamaican DJ saw some of my work on my MySpace and asked me to make a flyer for a B*Day bash he was giving. So now my wrists are feeling stiff of all the hard work.

Going to bed now. Sleep tight y'all.

Riddle

Just to please Lolu I will cut the love crap for today. But I have a little riddle for y'all.
A traveler nears an intersection that leads to two different villages.

There was a traveler...
He came upon 2 roads...
One road leads to false-village
And the other leads to truth-village
The traveler needs to go to truth-village
In front of the roads stood a man...
He said the traveler could only ask him ONE question...
The traveler needs to ask him which road leads to truth-village
The man came from one of the towns...
And those who are from truth-village tell ONLY the truth...
And those who are from false-village lie
This means... the man can be from either truth-village or false-village
HOWEVER the traveler doesn't know which town hes from...

It's not that hard is it? Just think about it and it will all become clear. Lol. Ready for the answer? Ok the answer is: "Which one is your village?". For those who don't get it, let me explain it.
The traveler doesn't know if the man tells a lie or not so:

• the man is a liar and he points to the truth village
• the man tells the truth and he points to the truth village

So either way, they will both point to the truth-village. See it wasn't that hard! Told you so!

Sometimes love is pain

Women might be able to fake orgasms. But men can fake whole relationships.
Sharon Stone

Had a convo with Peter today. It went from bad to worse. Calling me a liar and a fool. But the only person who is lying his he... he is lying to himself. He damn well knew I was still in love with him. But he refused to see it. And in that case it is easier to blame someone than to open your eyes.
Yeah indeed I did ask him about John, but not in the way he thinks. When I said I found his brother good looking, I knew I would get a reaction from him and I did get what I was hoping for. Even more than what I was hoping for! He got jealous and he showed more interest in me than he ever did.
So a couple of months ago I tried if the same trick worked again and I used one of his teammates (I even forgot the name already). This time the reaction was less but still there was a small reaction.
I believe last week he said he had a new girlfriend. Damn, bumper on my "small reaction". So today he was like "Can't talk cause I am doing things online with my girlfriend". This was one step too far! It's always the same with him so I was like "fine whatever" and from that moment we got in a pretty heavy discussion. I made him clear what was on my mind and mr. wasn't too happy that. Instead of being honest to himself, and admitting he knew I had still feelings for him, he started to call me names like fool and liar. Saying I want every guy. Him, his brother, ... and when I confronted him with his jealousy back in February when we talked about John, he didn't even had the courage to say he was indeed jealous. Nothing of that, he just blocked me!
Sometimes I wonder why I still love him. He can be a real jerk that knows the perfect things to dig a person deep into the ground. He can rip your heart in a thousand pieces in the blink of an eye. And still silly me loves him. Still I cry about him alost every night. Stupid I know... But tell that to my heart. It doesn't want to listen. It only screams his name.
I don't know how many tears I can shed for him. I cannot start to count how much I already cried... A river? No, more like the Atlantic Ocean...
But who am I? Only a liar in his eyes... I don't know what to feel. Tears are running over my cheeks, a deep pain inside me. Realizing this is really the end. All the dreams and hopes I had to get ever back with him are gone. All I ever said turned against me. I didn't want his brother at all. Why would I? I don't even know him. Same with his teammate. All I wanted is him... And yes Peter you were jealous and you couldn't stand the fact that I might get someone else! Deny it as much as you want! I never say anyone getting more jealous than you back then. That was what I aimed for and I got the reaction. Read between the lines and you will see my real intentions. At least if you are man enough to do so.
Wanna take my car and drive to his place to tell it to his face cause it's easy to hide behind a computer screen but I don't want to give him the satisfaction to see my red teared eyes. This is not worth it. I love him to death and one day he will remember my words and I... I will be having someone a million times better than him.
Remember my words... No one is irreplaceable, neither are you... Neither in my heart as on the soccer pitch. You were a great guy when you were in a good mood but you could be a straight up bastard when things didn't go the way you wanted it. You hurted me multiple times and I kept my mouth shut not to go in discussion with you. How do you call that? I gave you so much signs and you... you didn't care at all. It's my own stupid fault I didn't broke with you a long while ago but guess I can only remember the great things about you. Now you helped me reminding the bad things. But knowing me, I will forget this thing pretty soon and I will start longing for you again. Longing for something I cannot get and maybe that isn't too bad after all cause it will only bring me more pain than I am feeling now... But still my heart keeps calling your name. Stupid, stupid me...

Ok, let me whipe away my tears and talk about another subject. Remember when I talked about me wanting tattoos? Well guess what, I don't want only 1, I want 3! Yes Lolu, 3 and no you don't have to pull strange faces! They are all classy! I want the one on my back like Victoria Beckham, one on my shoulder and on my hip like Rihanna. 3 may sound much but they are not like huge designs (for example the tiger on Angelina Jolies back) but more discrete ones.

Ah sh*t I am crying again. Why do I love him this much?

Going to wrap it up and close my eyes to stop the tears from coming.

July 3th 2008

Rumors, rumors, rumors... Ait so from what I heard Peter will be going to Lierse (So far unconfirmed though) ... Dunno if I have to be happy or sad. It's more bittersweet. Yes I am happy he is staying in Belgium but on the other hand, Lierse??? Guess I will have to wait and see to get the confirmation, just like everyone else. I can understand his decision because he made himself clear back in January that he didn't want to move out of Belgium since his friends are here. Well whatever the reason may be, I am happy he stays in Belgium...

Went to town today with a friend. It was ait. Felt good to out for a while. Some real face 2 face conversation and not always through the internet.

Exam result haven't been released yet. Big up to the organisation: tomorrow they organise a collective correction of the exams. But how can you know if you have to go or not when you don't have results yet? If you don't passed the exam it could be useful to go and listen to what they have to say, but if you passed the exam, it's a waste of time to go sit there for hours... Really excelent organisation! Sigh!!!

So I wore my new bra today and I bumped into someone I haven't seen for weeks, maybe a month and she was like "Did you get a boob job? They look huge!". Dunno whether to be proud or feel slutty! I must say the bra makes em look "round". Lol! Yh, they look like Jeniffer Hudsons boobies! Round and fierce... Guess the male population won't be complaining!

So yesterday the moderator of GreatOld forum asked me to make a new wallpaper for the new trainer. Only one problem: I cannot find one single image that could do the job! The ones I find are like 50x50 which is too small. But I did make some other ones for the squad. I also made some avatars and stuff... Gotta keep myself busy one way or the other... I'll give y'all a lil taste of my stuff

Wallpapers past season 2007-2008







Wallpapers upcoming season 2008-2009







Avatars and signatures










So that's it. Nothing special. And now I am still waiting on Chris his rugby pictures cause I am his number one fan after all (yeah I know he is reading this so this so please Krinye, don't forget em!)

Going to leave y'all now cause it's looking black outside and don't want the lighting to ruin my lappie!

Peace

Insomnia

Can't sleep anymore! Been days since I had some decent sleep. Am lying on bed but just cannot fall asleep. Same last night. I switched off my lappie around 2 a.m. and I was still turning around one hour later. So I just decided to watch a movie.

First movie I watched was Ray. Been ages since I last saw that movie but it's a great one. Jamie really deserved the Acadamy Award. The songs are also great. I always loved Hit the Road Jack, Georgia On My Mind and Unchain My Heart.

Next movie I watched was Sometimes In April. I think I know that movie like inside out, that's how many times I watched it already.
Third movie was Biker Boyz! Had to switch to a more "light" movie so decided to go for that one since it has some hotties in it (Like Tyson Beckford and Derek Luke).
Last movie I watched was Amistad. I am sure y'all know that movie so no need to explain the plot.

So it's raining outside. Blah! Don't want to get out of bed. Got an appointment with someone tomorrow but I don't want to go. Don't want to be seen on the street with him but I have to go since he is my connection to mister hottie (***** *****) so if I don't go, I can write him on my tummy. Hard choice...