A best friend is sumone dat goes thru fire, stops a bullet for you, ... Dat is dere when you need sumone to talk to... Nd most of all; sumone who neva lets chu down, no matta what!But what do you get in return? Zero, nadda! Cus wheneva dat best - male - friend finds anotha girl, you are "dumped". Den dey dont know you anymore, dont talk to you anymore, when you cross 'em on 'em streets he looks away, ... But den when its ova between 'em, da best friend is all of da sudden good enough. Den you are good enough to talk to, good enough to f*ck, ... Nd when dey back togetha, 'em act like nuffin happened. Y'all know what: F*CK IT!!! Dis lil gal aint diggin dis best friend thang no mo'! If y'all need sumone to talk to when ya gurl dumped cha, den go to your homie but I aint da one to run to. No mo' crying nd hot sexi nites anymo'. Cus lemme set one thang straight: I aint one of yo homies, am still a gurl! Not a "lil sis" dat you can bang nd stuff like dat. I aint wastin ma time no mo' on em "best friends". Cus in da end 'em end up havin 'em girlfriends nd I been put aside. Eitha 'em come straight or 'em get lost.
Jus had to let out all 'em rage. lOl! All of dis started when da guy I liked - past tense! - was talkin 'bout da sis of his homie. 'Em was talkin about dat chick like she was a queen. 'Em would never get bored of her - dis was da thang dat pissed me of most -. Cus his reason of why him nd I could never been lovas was build 'round mosty one thang: he gets always of 'em gurls afta a while. Nd now all of da sudden 'em would not get bored of dis chick. Was jus so mad! First 'em bullsh*ttin' to me 'bout da "dont wanna date chu cause it always ends up badly nd dont wanna loose chu" nd now dis. Nd he claims to have balls. Yh right! I aint diggin lies no mo'. Am done with 'em. Finito, basta!
But talked to ma ex yesterday. Think dis was da first time eva he truly opened his heart instead of avoidin ev'ry discussion bout our past relationship. But it was so heart wrecknin... 'Em tellin me dat it hurted so much to be in a relationship wif me. Dunno da reason - didnt want to ask any further since I didnt want to hurt him even more - but I guess it was b/c of da distance. I had da same feelin as he has but I knew it would just have been a matta of time befo' we would be togetha. He didnt have to power to continue nd I respect dat decision... Miss him still a lot though... Yh, even afta almost 2 months I still miss da guy.
Before y'all think ma life is full of drama, I survived ma 2nd week of school. Dis was da first full week. Ma heart broke when I had to get out of ma warm bed at 6 am. lOl. It gets worse ev'ry year. Last year I had some trouble gettin out of bed but dis year it is horrible to get out of bed! lOl. Or maybe it is cus dis year I turn da midnight sessions into a habit. lOl. Think I just need to go to bed earlier nd not stay awake till dawn nd only get 1 hour of sleep.
Nd now dis lil gal has to get to her study books. Peace! Am out!
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you know the cure for gurls who cant sleep rite*wink*
Yes actually I do *wink*
(For those who wanna know what we are talking about, check this link http://i159.photobucket.com/albums/t150/ubd7/ForGirlsWhoCantSleeppink.jpg)
Something I made while I was absolutely boring but productive! lOl
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