Another meaningless post

Got my exam results in front of me... I passed all my June exams. Too bad I messed em up past January otherwise I could have a wonderful vacation but now I will be stressed all summer long. I need 75% of all my credits or I will be denied further enrollment. So far I have obtained 50% so I need another 25%. Fingers crossed. I should make a deal with my mom: if I get that 25%, I can get a tattoo.

Wanted to let a new iPhone 3G come over from the States (because over there you could cheat: first buy the phone and later you should register it online and buy the AT&T contract before you could activate the phone, instead of doing that you just hacked it) but turns out AT&T changed its policy. Now you first need to buy the 2 year agreement before you get the phone. Not funny! I don't need the contract, I only need the phone and over here it costs €615 and that's too much for a phone!

I know this guy (he knows who he is) and I have never met him but still he's like really sweet. He's the first guy who didn't get mad when I woke him up with a txt msg. I don't know but it's like I can tell him almost everything (or at least a lot). When we first started talking he said he wasn't looking for a soulmate or something but I hope the teddy bear accplication is available? LOL! Nah he's a great guy to talk to and can't wait to meet him in real. Hang out, chit chat, ...

So I am having this stomac aches for some days now and my period is due for 6 days already. Normally I am pretty sharp. One day earlier or later but never 6 days. Is it possible to be pregnant and still having your period regulary for the first 2 months? Last did it end of April, had period like a week later, month later I had them again. They lasted a little bit longer than normal though and now they ain't coming. We used protection and I am (was) pretty sure it didn't fail but now I am getting worried because 6 days is a lot, especially for someone like me.

Did y'all hear about that Ice-T vs Soulja Boy beef? Ice said Soulja was responsible for killing hip hop and Soulja responded with a diss back. Wel first of all, Ice shouldn't be dissing this kid in public and second, Soulja wasn't the only one! The killing started years ago with guys like 50 Cent. On the other hand, Soulja boy, you don't have to like the rappers that came before you, but you have to respect them. And another thing, Fuck The Police is an NWA song so it's written by Ice Cube and not T. But back to the death of hip hop. Back in the days you had guys like Eric B. & Rakim, Africa Bambaataa, Furious 5, DJ Kool Kerc,... with their own unique sound. And yes they had even meaningful lyrics. Girls in thongs are not meaningful! And the beats... How many times do I have to listen to the same recycled Timbaland beat? Nowadays when you hear one song, you heard them all. If the situation stays like this, I will be stuck in the 80s and early 90s forever. Stuck in the days when hip hop was still real hip hop.

End of my preaching.

Shattered dreams

I am so so mad right now! Remember I told you about me getting hooked up with one of the cutest guys alive? Well the cousin changed his mind. So if he can change his mind, so can I: no need to be friendly and talkative to him. He is no longer useful to me! Pfff!!!

Been really busy today (or should I say tonight?). Get your mind out of the gutter guys. It's not what you think it is. I had a lot people asking me to do some design stuff. First webbie asked me to turn a drawn into a PhotoShop brush. Was a lot of work cause I had to redraw it all otherwise he would have had a crackled bush and that wouldn't look nice on his apparel line. Then some Jamaican DJ saw some of my work on my MySpace and asked me to make a flyer for a B*Day bash he was giving. So now my wrists are feeling stiff of all the hard work.

Going to bed now. Sleep tight y'all.

Riddle

Just to please Lolu I will cut the love crap for today. But I have a little riddle for y'all.
A traveler nears an intersection that leads to two different villages.

There was a traveler...
He came upon 2 roads...
One road leads to false-village
And the other leads to truth-village
The traveler needs to go to truth-village
In front of the roads stood a man...
He said the traveler could only ask him ONE question...
The traveler needs to ask him which road leads to truth-village
The man came from one of the towns...
And those who are from truth-village tell ONLY the truth...
And those who are from false-village lie
This means... the man can be from either truth-village or false-village
HOWEVER the traveler doesn't know which town hes from...

It's not that hard is it? Just think about it and it will all become clear. Lol. Ready for the answer? Ok the answer is: "Which one is your village?". For those who don't get it, let me explain it.
The traveler doesn't know if the man tells a lie or not so:

• the man is a liar and he points to the truth village
• the man tells the truth and he points to the truth village

So either way, they will both point to the truth-village. See it wasn't that hard! Told you so!

Sometimes love is pain

Women might be able to fake orgasms. But men can fake whole relationships.
Sharon Stone

Had a convo with Peter today. It went from bad to worse. Calling me a liar and a fool. But the only person who is lying his he... he is lying to himself. He damn well knew I was still in love with him. But he refused to see it. And in that case it is easier to blame someone than to open your eyes.
Yeah indeed I did ask him about John, but not in the way he thinks. When I said I found his brother good looking, I knew I would get a reaction from him and I did get what I was hoping for. Even more than what I was hoping for! He got jealous and he showed more interest in me than he ever did.
So a couple of months ago I tried if the same trick worked again and I used one of his teammates (I even forgot the name already). This time the reaction was less but still there was a small reaction.
I believe last week he said he had a new girlfriend. Damn, bumper on my "small reaction". So today he was like "Can't talk cause I am doing things online with my girlfriend". This was one step too far! It's always the same with him so I was like "fine whatever" and from that moment we got in a pretty heavy discussion. I made him clear what was on my mind and mr. wasn't too happy that. Instead of being honest to himself, and admitting he knew I had still feelings for him, he started to call me names like fool and liar. Saying I want every guy. Him, his brother, ... and when I confronted him with his jealousy back in February when we talked about John, he didn't even had the courage to say he was indeed jealous. Nothing of that, he just blocked me!
Sometimes I wonder why I still love him. He can be a real jerk that knows the perfect things to dig a person deep into the ground. He can rip your heart in a thousand pieces in the blink of an eye. And still silly me loves him. Still I cry about him alost every night. Stupid I know... But tell that to my heart. It doesn't want to listen. It only screams his name.
I don't know how many tears I can shed for him. I cannot start to count how much I already cried... A river? No, more like the Atlantic Ocean...
But who am I? Only a liar in his eyes... I don't know what to feel. Tears are running over my cheeks, a deep pain inside me. Realizing this is really the end. All the dreams and hopes I had to get ever back with him are gone. All I ever said turned against me. I didn't want his brother at all. Why would I? I don't even know him. Same with his teammate. All I wanted is him... And yes Peter you were jealous and you couldn't stand the fact that I might get someone else! Deny it as much as you want! I never say anyone getting more jealous than you back then. That was what I aimed for and I got the reaction. Read between the lines and you will see my real intentions. At least if you are man enough to do so.
Wanna take my car and drive to his place to tell it to his face cause it's easy to hide behind a computer screen but I don't want to give him the satisfaction to see my red teared eyes. This is not worth it. I love him to death and one day he will remember my words and I... I will be having someone a million times better than him.
Remember my words... No one is irreplaceable, neither are you... Neither in my heart as on the soccer pitch. You were a great guy when you were in a good mood but you could be a straight up bastard when things didn't go the way you wanted it. You hurted me multiple times and I kept my mouth shut not to go in discussion with you. How do you call that? I gave you so much signs and you... you didn't care at all. It's my own stupid fault I didn't broke with you a long while ago but guess I can only remember the great things about you. Now you helped me reminding the bad things. But knowing me, I will forget this thing pretty soon and I will start longing for you again. Longing for something I cannot get and maybe that isn't too bad after all cause it will only bring me more pain than I am feeling now... But still my heart keeps calling your name. Stupid, stupid me...

Ok, let me whipe away my tears and talk about another subject. Remember when I talked about me wanting tattoos? Well guess what, I don't want only 1, I want 3! Yes Lolu, 3 and no you don't have to pull strange faces! They are all classy! I want the one on my back like Victoria Beckham, one on my shoulder and on my hip like Rihanna. 3 may sound much but they are not like huge designs (for example the tiger on Angelina Jolies back) but more discrete ones.

Ah sh*t I am crying again. Why do I love him this much?

Going to wrap it up and close my eyes to stop the tears from coming.

July 3th 2008

Rumors, rumors, rumors... Ait so from what I heard Peter will be going to Lierse (So far unconfirmed though) ... Dunno if I have to be happy or sad. It's more bittersweet. Yes I am happy he is staying in Belgium but on the other hand, Lierse??? Guess I will have to wait and see to get the confirmation, just like everyone else. I can understand his decision because he made himself clear back in January that he didn't want to move out of Belgium since his friends are here. Well whatever the reason may be, I am happy he stays in Belgium...

Went to town today with a friend. It was ait. Felt good to out for a while. Some real face 2 face conversation and not always through the internet.

Exam result haven't been released yet. Big up to the organisation: tomorrow they organise a collective correction of the exams. But how can you know if you have to go or not when you don't have results yet? If you don't passed the exam it could be useful to go and listen to what they have to say, but if you passed the exam, it's a waste of time to go sit there for hours... Really excelent organisation! Sigh!!!

So I wore my new bra today and I bumped into someone I haven't seen for weeks, maybe a month and she was like "Did you get a boob job? They look huge!". Dunno whether to be proud or feel slutty! I must say the bra makes em look "round". Lol! Yh, they look like Jeniffer Hudsons boobies! Round and fierce... Guess the male population won't be complaining!

So yesterday the moderator of GreatOld forum asked me to make a new wallpaper for the new trainer. Only one problem: I cannot find one single image that could do the job! The ones I find are like 50x50 which is too small. But I did make some other ones for the squad. I also made some avatars and stuff... Gotta keep myself busy one way or the other... I'll give y'all a lil taste of my stuff

Wallpapers past season 2007-2008







Wallpapers upcoming season 2008-2009







Avatars and signatures










So that's it. Nothing special. And now I am still waiting on Chris his rugby pictures cause I am his number one fan after all (yeah I know he is reading this so this so please Krinye, don't forget em!)

Going to leave y'all now cause it's looking black outside and don't want the lighting to ruin my lappie!

Peace

Insomnia

Can't sleep anymore! Been days since I had some decent sleep. Am lying on bed but just cannot fall asleep. Same last night. I switched off my lappie around 2 a.m. and I was still turning around one hour later. So I just decided to watch a movie.

First movie I watched was Ray. Been ages since I last saw that movie but it's a great one. Jamie really deserved the Acadamy Award. The songs are also great. I always loved Hit the Road Jack, Georgia On My Mind and Unchain My Heart.

Next movie I watched was Sometimes In April. I think I know that movie like inside out, that's how many times I watched it already.
Third movie was Biker Boyz! Had to switch to a more "light" movie so decided to go for that one since it has some hotties in it (Like Tyson Beckford and Derek Luke).
Last movie I watched was Amistad. I am sure y'all know that movie so no need to explain the plot.

So it's raining outside. Blah! Don't want to get out of bed. Got an appointment with someone tomorrow but I don't want to go. Don't want to be seen on the street with him but I have to go since he is my connection to mister hottie (***** *****) so if I don't go, I can write him on my tummy. Hard choice...