Bleeding love

I know I have been away from the blogging action a while but I have my reasons. Some of you may know why, while others can't see through this happy faced facade. Because that what it is, a facade. To the outside world I pretend to be fine, but once I am alone, I can throw off the facade and let the tears roll over my eyes and release all the pain I have inside. I've always been a strong caracter, but this is really tearing me apart. I often feel guilty for letting my feelings flow like this, but I cannot help it because the feelings are too deep and strong.

I got my exam schedule last week Friday and this one is the best schedule ever. I hope to pass all my exams without a re-sit in September because that would suck very much so. Not that I am not used to it but for once it would be nice to pass them... Lifting up the moral that is.

Some days I was really into the whole Christmas thing but now it just makes me sick! I just hope these days will be over very soon. And about this Saturday, I am not attending the family reunion and I won't make up any excuse. I don't want to attend and they better live with it. Whether they like it or not!

For those who notice some slight agitation in my tone, yes you are correct. I'm a wounded animal who is hurt and scared. Plus it is the time of the month so better not work against me.